Sinnest Sin

Aku calmed down bile aku dah spend time sendiri. Keje aku tak buat langsung 2 hari. Aku betul-betul banyak fikir. And the climax was just now. Everything settled. I already have my answer.

And this is… the very… real… truth.

“I've done the sinnest sin… in public”.

It’s true. Orang tua-tua cakap. Kalau bertemu, ade hikmahnye. Pisah pun, ade hikmahnye. I’m correcting my mistakes. Aku ngaku aku yang silap. Too anxious to blame. Homosapien bertanduk halus tu aku rupenye. So the lamb was really stupid. Coz the lion is actually a lamb also. But a better one --> faham tak???

And so in public also…

“I am so sorry. Tapi kalau kau jelaskan awal-awal, this won’t happen. But still… I’m really sorry”.

Ape yang jadi, betul-betul dah ajar aku macam-macam. Pengajaran yang tak boleh diajar. Yang kalau kau dah go through, baru tau. Aku tau yang orang ramai, big fan, groupie girls aku memang akan marah dgn aku punye bile bace ni. But I don’t care. Marah la. I’m in a learning process.

So, ni yg aku belajar.

1. Jgn la anggap betul-betul dah faham gf korang.
2. Kalau buat silap, jgn deny & ego. Mudahkanlah lidah utk minta maaf.
3. Jgn cepat menuduh yang bukan-bukan.
4. Dan the most important thing is, selalu sedar kelemahan diri, not others.

So, this is me being a jerk. And enough already. Aku ade promise something dgn dia tadi if she tells me truth, well NRSYZWNBNTMDJHR, I’m full filling my promise. Sorry again.

And so, ends the episode of “Hero Perasan”. Aku la tu…

Congratulations! Anda Kena Lagi!

Terkebil-kebil mulut aku ucap “congratulations” utk diri aku. Everything that was wonderful. Everything that was for hope. Everything that was beautiful. And everything that was kind & honesty. Semuanya tu arang yang tgh panas rupanya. Yang aku genggam selama ni aku ingat ice.

“Kau penipu!!” Nak je aku call kau & jerit semuanya kat kau!

Aku tak pernah sangka. Tak pernah terlintas sikit pun dalam otak aku yang dia ada tanduk yang sangat lutsinar. Now aku baru tau. Macam mane rasenye Nafy kau, Safwan kau rase. So the lamb was in love with the lion. What a stupid lamb? Thank you for all the venom, all the stupid bleeds.

At time aku learn the very truth, aku menggigil. MENGGIGIL. Tau kenapa? Sebab aku tak pernah terbayang wujudnya homosapien yang namenya PEREMPUAN, dan kampung halaman dia adalah “Kampung Bosan Tak Ingat Kalau Tak Buat Jahat”. And so, born the new ME. Semua belas aku sekarang dah jadi petrol yang menyimbah-nyimbah utk marakkan api dendam aku. Kate SEMARAK kan??? “Memarakkan” la keje kau sebenarnya kan??

In my whole life. Dia catat sejarah dalam hidup aku. DENDAM! Aku takde dendam dgn orang lain sebelum ni. Dia orang pertama yang aku dendam tak ingat dunia. THANKYOU VERY MUCH! Patut la selama ni aku rase alasan dia tu sangat bodoh utk putus. Sejam yang lepas, aku terfikir pasal dia. Sihat ke, semua OK ke, gembira ke. AHHHHH! Ternyata sekarang ko memang gembira.

Kau baru je lahirkan aku kepada sesuatu.

HAVE FUN selagi kau boleh. Amin…..

Missing

Kenape makin lame, makin tak kisah? Rindunye zaman mula2 kenal...

Sejak dah takde kat KL, makin susah nak dpt attention. YES, lelaki pun perlukan attention.

Hopefully, I'll stay strong for u. I want to.

Mode sedih: ON

Me VS Snore. Bring it on!

Earthquake? No.
Storm? No.
M’sia at war? No.
Along’s snore? Definitely!!!.

My cousins came overnight so I have to sleep with my bro. I was getting sleepy and nearly sailed away with my dreams when "it" comes and wrecked my boat!!!

Ahaaaaaaaa!!!! Along berdengkuran. Adus! Thats where it started…

1st trial.
I wake him, and I said "Woi, elok-elok ahh tido tu". At first ok je. Then, same thing happen when I was very, very nearly slept.

2nd trial.
I kicked his leg and when he woke up, I was pretending sleeping. So, he thought I was dreaming or something. Ahh… What a bliss at that time. But then, it started again…

3rd trial.
I wake him, and ask him to drink some water (Main buat-buat je, mane la tau jadi lak). Seriously he stops snores. I was glad and got slept.. NOT FOR LONG!!
And again he snore.

4th trial.
Never had the 4th trial because I was tooooooo frustrated. I pick my pillow and sleep on the couch!

Truth is, you can never stop a fenomena called SNORE.
The End.

When Someone You Trust, Stab You!

This entry was posted on Tuesday, January 16th, 2007 at 7:01 am

Hmm…

Frustration. Thats what I felt that time. Sampai hati!!
How would you feel when it comes to you?. Every day you hang out, play, laugh, even spent your money together with your only best buds at the time. And one day, they stab you from the back. Even at that time you were holding a rifle or gun, they just stab you and you were too crush in unbelieveable untill you couldnt shoot back. Padahal boleh je tembak die balik. Tapi tak sanggup. How dare you. Where is that moment that you said that you would protect me??Where is it?!!
Hisssshhhh~!!!! Lain kali aku tak nak main game Counterstrike lagi dgn ko Aiman. Ko tikam aku pakai pisau! Pastu team ko menang lak tu. Kejam nye ko!!. Friends… When you play Counterstrike, just kill your friends. Jangan belas kasihan. Didnt work!!.